Who among us hasn’t been so mad that you just wanted to break something? Blogger of the month Brenda Cohorn talks today about the unexpected lesson she learned from a moment of hurt and frustration.
I’m pretty laid back, so when I was in the most frustrated time of my life, I decided I wanted to step outside of my box and break something.
I had been married for 30+ years, and my husband had been unfaithful. I had been dealing with this the way I believed God was leading me, but one evening out of frustration, I decided I just wanted to destroy something. Throw some glass and hear it crash into a million pieces.
So I headed to the kitchen. Looking through all my cabinets I realized I couldn’t find anything I was willing to destroy. Not my dishes. No baking dishes — I use them regularly. So I went into the study and decided to break an antique bottle that was worth less than $10 and was “his” anyway. Not one of my finest moments.
Then I went back to the kitchen and realized if I threw this bottle in the kitchen to break it, there would be a mess. Little pieces of glass everywhere … well, who wants to clean that up? (On television and in movies they never show who cleans up these messes.) Well, I knew I was on my own. So I had to think about this for a while.
Finally I took it outside (fortunately, we lived in a rural area) and decided to throw it against the house. Great solution, I thought, no glass to clean up. Then I proceeded to throw that bottle as hard as I could, but it didn’t break. So I tried several more times, and it still didn’t break. So I decided that breaking something wasn’t worth the trouble this bottle was making for me.
But this incident made me realize that breaking something wasn’t the answer. Especially for me, not with my personality. I can’t become someone I’m not – even for a moment of gratification.
I learned that I can pray and laugh away my frustration. Because really, it was funny — after the third throw.
I learned that friends who laugh with me and cry with me are a better antidote than hearing the crashing of glass.
I learned in those hard times that I am stronger than I ever imagined, Jesus was closer than I ever realized, and I am loved more than I ever knew.